A poem for a update....

Im trapped in this world between what i want and what i need,
In a place where one bad move can ruin my chances to succeed,
Blinded by the way i feel not wanting to surrender to something that might hurt,
Walking in the dark shadows no light to illuminate my self-worth,
Bond in chains so heavy but no strength to have them removed,
My weakness is my enemy, my flesh that needs reproof,
Shrinking away from the light afraid of what might be revealed,
Wanting so much to go to it, Tired of keeping things concealed,
Feeling way too much at home in a place not fit for me,
Knowing oh so well exactly where im suppose to be,
Longing for both worlds one hand stretched towards what i want,
The freedom to make mistakes, the liberties to flaunt,
Another hand stretched toward all the things i need,
Eternal security... living for the one who died for me...
As of lately i've been feeling kind of trapped in a world of what i want and what i need,
And i haven't yet decided which one its gonna be.