A poem for a update....

Im trapped in this world between what i want and what i need,
In a place where one bad move can ruin my chances to succeed,
Blinded by the way i feel not wanting to surrender to something that might hurt,
Walking in the dark shadows no light to illuminate my self-worth,
Bond in chains so heavy but no strength to have them removed,
My weakness is my enemy, my flesh that needs reproof,
Shrinking away from the light afraid of what might be revealed,
Wanting so much to go to it, Tired of keeping things concealed,
Feeling way too much at home in a place not fit for me,
Knowing oh so well exactly where im suppose to be,
Longing for both worlds one hand stretched towards what i want,
The freedom to make mistakes, the liberties to flaunt,
Another hand stretched toward all the things i need,
Eternal security... living for the one who died for me...
As of lately i've been feeling kind of trapped in a world of what i want and what i need,
And i haven't yet decided which one its gonna be.

My life so far in 2008...

Has been pretty nice. I started work again and now i only go to school on Tuesday and Thursdays which is really nice cuz not only do i get a 4 day weekend every weekend, but i can work more which means more money... :) I love my job too so that helps alot. The hours go by pretty fast.

I'm taking 6 classes at JJC as of now. Astronomy online, Sociology with a teacher who seems as if she'll have a heartattack any second. I feel sorry for her cuz all the students disrespect her cuz she dont do anything about it... They text take phone calls and everything and she does nothing... going to sleep isnt even a biggie... I love the class because i can do whatever i want! Attandence is 20% of the grade so i have to go, but then again if i show up thats one thing that would pul my grade up :). I have a music class thats so hard for me to understand, but im getting better.. the teacher is aight even tho i cant be 5 minutes late cuz it counts as a tardy and 3 tardys is an unexcused absents and 3 unexcused absentses give u a failing grade....

My English 102 class is AWESOME!!! Cuz i love my teacher i actually took her becuz i had her for 101 and we just automatically clicked!!

And i have a philosophy class thats so mind bogling! Like for real its like an endless circle of nonsense, but i dare not tell him "the teacher" that cuz he's a philosopher... poor guy. lol

Last and most definetly the least is my fitness class 26 visits and i get an A :D! And in the process i stay fit and toned...

So thats basically wat my life is like right now...

Im also trying to raise money for a trip to Europe in the summer so hopefully that works out among many other things hope to accomplish this year...

Thanksgiving Break Came And Went

Ohhhh, how sad. It was to short. I really do enjoy my days out of school. To be able to sleep till 9. Not have to worry about homework. (Just cram it in at the last minute).
Life for me has been decent though. I'm working basically full-time now. I love the kids im around they're awesome. I should take pics of them one day. And make a post about them.
So I'm taking the PACE bus alot now. Its cuz i only have one person who can transport me so till i get a car i have to rely on them. Not exactly the "route" i'd like to take, but at least its helping me be a little more independent and aware of my surroundings.
I'm going to Europe next year, which im very excited about. I got into the people 2 people program. Now i'm counting down the days till we leave.

BTW. Happy Birthday LIZ!!!! hope ur day was FAN-tastic!!! *muahz*

Im

In the library with absolutely nothing to do.... i got out of my spanish class early cuz i didnt kno wat i was doing on the midterm so i turned it in blank.... naw im kidding but i think it might of been better for her eyes if i did lol. Anyways life so far is good i aced my paper yesterday so thats something good at least. I'm dreading this weekend, but only a few of us would kno why ;)....

So life so far.....

Is good.... im happy. i got a job. im surviving school. ugh who am i kidding im barely making it. lol

So guess wat....

I got a job!!!!!

My training starts Friday.. :)

I'll be a math and reading tutor something i already have experience in.

It pays well and its flexible!!!

yay for me

A Sheriff Talked To Me

So we were at Walmart a few nights ago i believe it was Friday night and something occurred. I was walking out of the store going to the car when a group of about 10-15 boys came running into the store loud and boisterous. I'm thinking "Well its a good thing I'm leaving" just so happens that at that moment my mother called telling me to go back in the store to buy something which i did. In that short amount of time the boys were then making a lot of noise coming out of the store. I would of completely ignored them other than the fact two employees were yelling at them to stop and chasing them. So i ran into the restroom put on my Super girl fit and took care of the problem...... well no it wasn't that easy, i actually felt quite helpless. Anyways while I was watching this whole escapade a man came up to me asked me what happened then flicked open his wallet to show me his badge. It was like in a way he was saying "I wanna know and this is why i have a right to know" It was awesome. So all that to say i talked to a sheriff for the first time in my life and it wasn't me getting into trouble but rather being a witness! :)

I'm anti-war,,,,,

I must say.....

I feel shamed...

I've gone like forever and a day without updating this blog, but for very good reasons... My life has been very eventful in the past few weeks. Just last week i came back from a Camp called "Entrenuity" a business camp. That was alot of fun i met alot of great people and we had an awesome time.

I've also been getting hours of driving for my license. Just monday i hit 50 mph on a two lane expressway. I'm real excited about driving and can hardly wait till i get my license and my own car.

Next week I'll be going into Joliet Junior College to take the "Compass test" to see where i'm at and wat classes i'll have to start off taking so wish me well on that.

I also applied for a job a Mcdonalds today and the lady seemed very interested so hopefully i get the job cuz i reall need the money...

So life has been quite interesting for me lately... things seem to be going quite well..... most of the time.

So Have You Ever Been Confused?

So Have you ever felt so sure about something it confused you? It might sound like an oxymoron, but its possible..... i think.... Ok so I'm so sure this thing will work out right that I'm actually confused about whether it will actually work after all!
I wanna do one thing, but my impatient self wants to do something else and the more i try to figure it out the worst it gets and now i just don't know if I'm so SURE about it anymore!
I have something else that has added to this string of confusion where I thought i had did something and now I am question mark about whether it was really done or not!
And in a way these things are all mixed in with each other in a very akward case! Which makes things even more confusing cuz that other thing should of been dealt with a long time ago but I thought it was and thats why I'm even more confused about that...... *SIGH*

And If your confused now......... Well, join the club!